guardian angel..

DEAR ANGEL,

I used to  believe that you were my savior in my time of need.. you used to be, i do not complain but why u r not here now ? now ? i am bleeding.. and u r not here to save me.. i do not want to fight anymore, i do not want you to teach me how to fight.. I was fighting for my whole life, but now, i do not have the courage to do so.. 

You broke a promise and made me realize, it was all just a lie.. you were not here, never were.. It was me, it was my will that someone was out there to care for me except from myself.. i wanted so hard to believe that someone was there.. SOMEONE.. I do not blame you for my weakness, but i dont want to blame myself, i dont want to admit that i dont have the courage to continue, i am feeling so alone.. but why ?

 i should be happy.. i have everything in life, but i still feel empty.. 
WHO WANTS TO BE ALONE ?


always yours,
ballerinaOfsilence...